finally - endocrinologist appointment

now that i have insurance, i can FINALLY see an endocrinologist. i am very persistent when it comes to getting in to see doctors and i kept pushing the fact that i'm a pregnant diabetic. i need help adjusting my insulin. it's impossible to get an appointment with a doc who is on staff at the hospital where i will deliver, but i figured this is better than nothing. she can consult with my OB and high-risk ob, and if need be, i can deliver at the hospital where she is on staff. it has been so nervewracking, feeling all alone in this. trying to manage diabetes on a good day with no bumps in the road is a challenge. managing it while being pregnant is just scary. i need guidance. thankfully it hasn't been too bad and thankfully our little sweet pea looks just fine. still, what a relief. also, i am eligible for an insulin pump upgrade on 4/12. i can get an even more advanced technological device that tracks my sugar 24/7. it's a sensor that looks like a little button that i insert every few days. it communicates with my pump and tells me when my sugar is going low/high so i can manage anything before it becomes a problem. it's amazing. it's like having a pancreas. it will help me during the latter part of the pregnancy which is better than nothing. at least i'll have that for baby #2. yes, i already think about baby #2, things i will do differently next time around. everything is a learning experience. right now i'm really trying to enjoy this one. it's finally sinking in a bit, as i tell more people (usually random strangers - cashiers, pharmacists ("is this ok for pregnant women? i'm 12 weeks pregnant..."), etc.) and as we have very positive ultrasounds, it is finally sinking in. :)